What you seek can only be found within yourself. You have the power to be as you wish to be, live as you wish to live internally. It is in that place where your universe resides. The universe, YOUR universe only lives inside of YOU. External circumstances are a reflection of the internal circumstances. Seeking control through these means as a way to control external means is yet still control through external means. External circumstances do arise due to internal circumstances, however these external circumstances cannot be completely dictated by internal circumstances. Connection is everything. Your connection to yourself and your connection with nature. Connect with yourself internally and let nature flow you through the present moment to your next destination.
The universe is infinite, you are infinite, love is infinite. As inside, so outside. As outside, so inside.